Munches & meet ups

I have never attended a munch/meet because I am such a private person I have always found the thought of that terrifying. When I first started this journey 12yrs ago I would find a Dom through the classifieds.. then on aol/yahoo we would correspond for a while, then talk on phone, then meet up for the session. I met a lot of interesting people that way. Until I met one that wasnt really a Dom, just a guy who tried to rape me. I managed to get out, unscathed, but the thought of what could have been, stopped me from having any more sessions with Doms. That was the time that I switched & instead of meeting Dom's I was the Domme meeting the sub, somehow that felt safer & kept me in the scene. However being Domme just wasnt for me.. I may have been good at it, because I am very assertive in my real life, but it wasnt what I wanted to be.

Now that I am seeking again though I am wondering if perhaps attending munches is the safer way to go.. The BDSM world has grown so much over recent years... what if I met someone who was really just a sadist & I couldnt 'get out' I am not as strong as I had been back then.. sure I can still look after myself, but mentally I am not as strong as I had been.

There is a swingers club close to where I live that has BDSM nights, I joined that a few years ago, but I have never attended any. The thought of bumping into someone I know puts me off. My family may know all about me & what I am, but I dont want joe public knowing too.

So I have a dilema...

Knowing Oneself

I have learnt a lot about myself in the past 12yrs & I know that my submissiveness has evolved along with me. My view of myself & the lifestyle has altered as I have become more knowledgeable. There was a time when I refused to even accept that my own submissiveness placed me under the BDSM tag. I was not that submissive, so I thought.

I now know that it doesnt matter how submissive or Dominant you are in nature, or even what your preferances may be. It is all part of BDSM.

Most vanilla people when they see BDSM they immedietly think of whips, chains & leather, but not every D/s is into that. There are many different lifestyles within BDSM

• DD - Domestic Discipline
• HOH - Head of Household
•  M/s - Master/slave
• D/s - Dom/sub
• TPE - Total Power Exchange

There are even D/s couples who try to live a Gorean lifestyle & if your not familiar with Gor, they are books written by John Norman about a counter earth where all Men were Masters.

I am a sub who needs her Dom I like to think that within my own D/s relationship there will be elements of all the above.

New Journey

Katherine's Spanking Stories was born in 2000. That was when I first began to publish my stories on the Internet using a tripod account. It became popular very quickly & by 2001 I had my own dot com spankkl. By then I was living the dream for myself, but by 2004 it had become my worst nightmare. In 2005 I made the decision to give up my dot com & remove Katherine's Spanking Stories altogether. My dream had turned sour & I could no longer write about it.

I did everything I could think of to suppress this need in me, I even succeeded for a while, but as we all know.. once you have opened Pandora's box.. it is almost impossible to close that lid down tightly again.

I dont wish to dwell on the past as its behind me now... all I will say is my 'Dom'  was not a very good man & he broke me... completely. It has taken me years to put myself back together again & now that I have done I am ready to embrace my True self & find my Special Man in the real World.

I say real World because I have spent the last few years living a virtual life... I have had Virtual Masters, whom have helped, in their own small way,  to put me back together again. I owe my last Virtual Master a debt of gratitude for all he did for me, we were together for 4yrs & without him I doubt that I would be where I am right now.

Now I am ready once more to take a new journey with someone who views this lifestyle as i do. I know he is out there somewhere... just waiting for someone like me